I’m blogging again. Not because my life is in disarray – but
because it is peaceful – and in the midst of peaceful, there comes a time when the water
is still and things you thought were buried deep begin to rise to the
surface. I find such solace in writing,
in setting words free, so (deep breath), here I am picking up my pen.
When I think about where my life used to be and where I am today, and I can’t help but feel my eyes moisten with gratitude. I am truly thankful for my journey. However, sometimes I think I focus too much on the journey and destination, that I miss some of the day to day.
So, today:
I find myself in a season of "to be."
My boys are grown (that thought in itself is stirs some hefty emotions). In just 16 days I will be gifted with a "daughter" as my firstborn is getting married!! I always thought I'd have a girl - now I know that's her! This dear girl is an absolute delight - She is the perfect answer to my prayers.
Let me just share it like this - my son is getting MARRIED - and I am so excited!! This is one of the most important life decisions and an absolutely beautiful passage! Nonetheless, as a mother, I feel as I'm experiencing a passage too. I'm not sure how to name it; I just know there is a tender place inside me filled with an unsettled anxiousness about my next chapter: What will my life look like? Will I be a good "mother-in-love"? Have I taught my precious son all I can??Reflecting is so delicate. I often look back and wonder about the example I have been. You see, life doesn't always unfold the way we plan. I take inventory of my life and realize that I am indeed in an amazing place - a beautiful place - a safe place. I am surrounded by delightful people who love & encourage me.
And, I have grown two wonderful men - and they have grown me! Therefore, I will indeed turn this page ... with God's grace.
